Ever notice how when fear about something creeps in you develop a distraction?
When I was in high school I was diagnosed ADD because I was restless, argumentative with teachers, agitated and anxious about speaking up in class, and just generally didn't learn the way that "most kids do".
School was a struggle so I started smoking enough pot to keep me entertained. That eventually got me into trouble because then I didn't go to class and my grades would slip further into the abyss. Eventually my principal intercepted and set me up in a program that allowed me to work to gain credits at school. He promised I would pass as long as I stopped smoking pot.
I quit pot.
I committed to myself to avoid college and remain driven to wherever I wanted to go.
Except I had no idea where that was because I hadn't had the focus or attention to inquire about such a thing.
I tried a number of different ADD meds and all of them made me anxious and skinny as fuck, (something I needed no help with at all).
Anyways it took me some time but I found a career that not only used up my excess energy, taught me a lot about my own disposition, but was also entirely within my own hands to achieve.
Being and entrepreneur is not easy. I am always self reflecting, analyzing, and generally looking for ways to improve. Needless to say it keeps my mind busy with things to focus on.
When I am not busy enough though, I become anxious.
Which leads me to the point of this post. Am I stressed, or am I bored? I often think it to be the latter as the stresses that I have faced in my life seem to not really be stressors at all but rather things that occupy my mind by giving it a problem to solve.
When I look at the times in my life when I have created drama with friends or started to gossip it is typically moments in time where I am not stimulating myself enough and doing the work that I need to do.
Boredom is damaging, to ourselves, our relationships, and our lifestyle.. it will kill every dream you have ever had.
Wouldn't we rather just keep ourselves occupied with problems like learning new languages, developing new techniques, trying new things, and growing up with out growing stagnant?
Though perhaps it is far easier to create problems for other people because then we don't have to be accountable.
Welcome to my ramble: Please be sure that I just ranted the noise in my own head down into this pile of words that might not even make sense..
Bottom line: next time you are anxious, ask yourself what problems you can solve in your own life to make you feel better. Then solve them.
Hahahaha like it is that fuckin easy